The Foreign Star

" Amar Bhindeshi Tara, Eka rater akashe, tumi bajale ektara, amar chilekothar pashe"


[ My foreign star, alone in the night sky, you played the one stringed instrument, besides my attic]

This song reminds me of no human being... but a feeling of someone, an unknown entity. Someone in my imagination, some one who is there with me from very long... There is a big chance that it is actually my alter ego, it can also be my guiding star, the devil in my mind or the angel in my heart. The song always take me back to a sense of nothingness, especially when it's dusk, the song says


" Just before the dusk, someone calls you by your name, whom do you tell your story, hiding in someone's heart"

There are many incidents in life where I've heard this song just by chance, and I went on listening to it. Surprisingly all the times I was having a mood swing and the song helped me get it right back. And the mediums of playing were different... as if the song is made to cool me down. Another coincidence was, every time it was late at night when the song played. I think it wanted to be true to the lyrics


" My night watching star, u stay somewhere else, My face looks scared, I am actually a novish"

Some months ago, after a very hard days work, when I came back home, I had this un- satisfactory feeling inside me. And i thought,  the feeling will go if I go for a night drive. Generally driving at night on Mumbai Roads are really fun, but that day, I was not feeling the fun, the joy that I generally get after driving, and as a result I became more sad, and was in a very irritating mood. I cut the journey short and came back, and as soon as I parked the car, before I could switch of the AC, through my car stereo  these lines came.


My kite which has seen the sky, some dares and some lies, 
Cover my eyes and give me light, give me a cold shelter
You are as good as my mother, I feel very lonely


Around a month ago I had a serious fight with one of my very good friend. I am generally a peace loving person, but this situation was something different. I was in a very sad mood and i was sitting infront of my laptop and started my itunes. Some songs were playing randomly which I never bothered to listen properly. I opened facebook and was going through the pictures and I stopped at a picture where me and my that friend are together, I felt very sad & the Itunes guessed my mood right, within 30 seconds I could listen.


" My naughty star, you never listen to me,what's the hurry? please cross the road carefully."

 And if that's not enough, the biggest Deja Vu happened two days back. Before leaving for office I got a call from my mom. She said one of my old students had commited suicide as he got just 15 marks less than a first class degree in his 10th exam. As his teachers looked down upon him he decided to jump infront of a train. Though I am infamous in my surrounding for lacking human emotions, this news really made me feel bad for that poor guy. I sat in the rickshaw and to let go off his thought, I turned my ipod on, put the headphones on, and as soon as i pressed the 'shuffle songs' option, all I got to listen was...

"Dust can't touch you, but I am no rich man,
If you touch my skin and feel the water with your both hands
In the night of grief, please come as sleep in my eyes"

Now i am sure about the connect with this song. it wont let me be sad, it will always help me find solace whenever I am down. This song by Chandrabindoo will never let me feel alone. It will give me new hope, new beginning, new way. No matter what the situation is, no matter however sorrow is there in my life, I know I could always fall back on this song, I could always listen to...


" My nocturnal star, my house is touching the sky,but I cant touch you, I really feel alone...